First Moment of Panic

So...Saturday night was ROUGH. Seriously thought I was going into labor. Went to bed about 9:30 and could not get to sleep cause of my contractions. But I've had them for forever so I didn't think much of it. Then they got stronger...and stronger...and closer together. So I started to monitor them. By 10:30, they were every 3-4 minutes and hurting more than normal. So I start to panic.

My brain starts this, "My hospital bag is mostly packed, we are supposed to move in with Kyle but we can probably do that with the newborn, Kaleb is asleep but should be okay on the way to my mom's house to drop him off, where is the camera charger?, should I call Hillary yet?" etc.

I woke Ryan up a few times in a calm panic (he is supposed to work Sunday morning at 6), "I think I'm in labor." "NO you aren't. You aren't freaking out yet. Go to sleep."

An hour later..."seriously. I think I'm in labor. they haven't slowed down and they are really starting to hurt!" He actually opened one eye, "How bad?" "Like a 4 or 5on scale of 1 to 10." "It's not real yet. Go back to sleep." "I can't go back! I never went to sleep in the first place!!!"

An hour later..."I think I need to take a walk. I can't just lay here. I need to move or something." "It's 2am. You aren't walking alone outside. Go To Sleep."

I was waiting for 1) my water to break 2) my daughter to suddenly drop in my belly and have this "it's time" moment or 3) to not be able to talk through my contractions. None of those ever happened and I finally fell asleep exhausted at about 3am. The contractions continued but seemed lighter.

I have to admit the whole episode brought a lot of Kaleb's labor back to me. It's just so intense and to have the pain lower down with the pressure and the tightness and something that is just so...abnormal. It's hard to deal with that. I guess it's good that I'm getting this "prep" time.

I have my doc appt tomorrow at 10am. If I go in and there is NO change from all of that and my continued contractions and pressure, I am going to be VERY POd. I would like my daughter to wait one more week so I can be 37 weeks and IN A HOUSE. After that, let's go girl!!!